Tomorrow

I made it the long weekend without any red bleeding.  Heck, there were times when I had NO brown spotting.  I usually have the heaviest spotting in the morning when I wake up, but the past 2 mornings I've woken up to nothing.  Before I get too excited, I have to remind myself that I will have good days, and then followed by bad days.  Some women think it's resolved and it makes it's appearance when they're least expecting it. 

What I forgot to tell y'all about my OB appt I had when I found out I was pregnant, was that it was a disaster.  I didn't get to see an actual OB, or even get to talk to one...Even after the 1st ultrasound when they suspected ectopic.  I just kept getting seen by a nurse.  A nurse who made it very clear that I was bothering her, and that she had other patients to see.  So I switched..again.

My 1st appt with the new OB was scheduled for the 20th of this month.  I got an early ultrasound appt with them for last Monday just for viability.  But I got a call on Thursday from the new OB herself to let me know that I needed to come in right away after the long weekend.  She needs to do an ultrasound and figure out how at risk am I.  She also mentioned that I will have to be watched carefully, and will be a high risk patient. 

And that appointment is tomorrow.  I am excited to see the baby again, and to see how much it has grown since last week, but I am also petrified at what else we may or may not see.  I have been praying for this to heal, and heal fast so it doesn't affect how the baby is developing, but I have little hope...I am still cramping, and I am still spotting, and I am exhausted, all signs that it's still there.

If you wouldn't mind saying a prayer for us tomorrow I would really appreciate it.  Or just keep us in your thoughts =)  My appt is at 11:30, and we should be back by 2pm.  I'll update as soon as I can.