I NEED this dress. The End
The Dress
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Cervix is long and closed, there is no evidence where the blood is coming from, and baby once again is clueless as to what's happening.
This all means...your guess is as good as mine, and the professionals. It made me feel better that they said the main thing is that baby okay and that my cervix is long and closed. Some times pregnant ladies bleed and they can't find where exactly it's coming from. There was also no sign of my Subchorionic Hemorrhage.
Only advice they gave me was to live life like there is no bleed.
Baby is definitely bigger, heart rate much higher (174) and she said baby looked awesome, even measuring a bit bigger than it's gestational age. We saw the umbilical cord, and the blood flow in it, and she showed us the developing brain! In this picture baby's head is on the left, chin to chest, and it's little bottom is sitting on it's yolk sac!
This all means...your guess is as good as mine, and the professionals. It made me feel better that they said the main thing is that baby okay and that my cervix is long and closed. Some times pregnant ladies bleed and they can't find where exactly it's coming from. There was also no sign of my Subchorionic Hemorrhage.
Only advice they gave me was to live life like there is no bleed.
Baby is definitely bigger, heart rate much higher (174) and she said baby looked awesome, even measuring a bit bigger than it's gestational age. We saw the umbilical cord, and the blood flow in it, and she showed us the developing brain! In this picture baby's head is on the left, chin to chest, and it's little bottom is sitting on it's yolk sac!
Friday, July 16, 2010
Paging CRAZY LADY
I've had a good week. Got to see the new Twilight Movie, got some cooler weather...no spotting. Then yesterday happened.
For 3 days I've been having mild side pinches. Every 30 seconds or so, and I read it was normal. Then came some cramping. Like I had to lay down because it hurt. Around 10pm last night it went away. Even the pinching. BUT I had an awful night. I couldn't sleep. I think I got maybe 2 hours.
This morning my husband told me that he was having nightmares all night. Nightmares that I was telling him I "Lost the baby" . For some reason that made me nervous. 3 hours later when I went pee, I wiped and glanced down, and saw red. I am not sure how long I've been bleeding...I've pretty much trained myself the past week not to look anymore because the light brown spotting was making me too nervous..
When I went into the bedroom to make the bed, I noticed I had a small stain on my side of the bed! I didn't notice because I've been so hot at night, that I've been sleeping naked.
So here I sit again waiting for an OB call, to see if I can get in to make sure everything is alright. I'm worried that they will ask me to wait till Tuesday when my appt is...But I just can't. I will end up in the ER worried, and get another ER bill..I would rather they make time for me today, and save me the hassle of going to the ER for the 3rd time this EARLY pregnancy.
I must look like a crazy lady to them...and they must be kicking themselves in the behind for accepting me! (they weren't accepting new patients)
**Update** Emergency Ultrasound at 3:30.
For 3 days I've been having mild side pinches. Every 30 seconds or so, and I read it was normal. Then came some cramping. Like I had to lay down because it hurt. Around 10pm last night it went away. Even the pinching. BUT I had an awful night. I couldn't sleep. I think I got maybe 2 hours.
This morning my husband told me that he was having nightmares all night. Nightmares that I was telling him I "Lost the baby" . For some reason that made me nervous. 3 hours later when I went pee, I wiped and glanced down, and saw red. I am not sure how long I've been bleeding...I've pretty much trained myself the past week not to look anymore because the light brown spotting was making me too nervous..
When I went into the bedroom to make the bed, I noticed I had a small stain on my side of the bed! I didn't notice because I've been so hot at night, that I've been sleeping naked.
So here I sit again waiting for an OB call, to see if I can get in to make sure everything is alright. I'm worried that they will ask me to wait till Tuesday when my appt is...But I just can't. I will end up in the ER worried, and get another ER bill..I would rather they make time for me today, and save me the hassle of going to the ER for the 3rd time this EARLY pregnancy.
I must look like a crazy lady to them...and they must be kicking themselves in the behind for accepting me! (they weren't accepting new patients)
**Update** Emergency Ultrasound at 3:30.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Date Day
Wooo!
Today the husband and I are going on a date. A movie date. Best part? It's my choice! See, my little secret is that I sorta/kinda/almost/maybe like the Twilight movies. The acting is terrible, but I enjoy feeling like a gushing teenage girl when I watch it. And that my friends is what I picked to see!
We chose the 11am showing, in hopes to avoid annoying chatty teenagers, but with my terrible luck, it will be packed with them, and they will all be gorgeous and like 6ft tall and sit in front of me.
Anywho! the plan is Movie, return a shirt to Target and hit Walmart. funfun!
(The shirt is one I bought on the weekend my mother was in town...I feel HUGE in it, so time to return it!)
Hope y'all have a great weekend!
Today the husband and I are going on a date. A movie date. Best part? It's my choice! See, my little secret is that I sorta/kinda/almost/maybe like the Twilight movies. The acting is terrible, but I enjoy feeling like a gushing teenage girl when I watch it. And that my friends is what I picked to see!
We chose the 11am showing, in hopes to avoid annoying chatty teenagers, but with my terrible luck, it will be packed with them, and they will all be gorgeous and like 6ft tall and sit in front of me.
Anywho! the plan is Movie, return a shirt to Target and hit Walmart. funfun!
(The shirt is one I bought on the weekend my mother was in town...I feel HUGE in it, so time to return it!)
Hope y'all have a great weekend!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
It's Resolving!
Verdict: It's resolving!
We saw the bleed on the ultrasound, and it's on it's way to the cervix! Which explains all the bleeds and discharge! The OB said that I didn't have a tear afterall, but had a deep implantation bleed that caused the hemorrhage.
The baby? PERFECT! It has arms, legs...and a tail! Oh, and a perfect heartbeat of 154! It's going up nicely.
We saw the bleed on the ultrasound, and it's on it's way to the cervix! Which explains all the bleeds and discharge! The OB said that I didn't have a tear afterall, but had a deep implantation bleed that caused the hemorrhage.
The baby? PERFECT! It has arms, legs...and a tail! Oh, and a perfect heartbeat of 154! It's going up nicely.
In this picture you can see to the right of the sac a little black mark, looks like 8 little circles in a cluster..that's the bleed! She says it's on it's way to the cervix, so I am assuming my cervix is on that end :P
Monday, July 5, 2010
Tomorrow
I made it the long weekend without any red bleeding. Heck, there were times when I had NO brown spotting. I usually have the heaviest spotting in the morning when I wake up, but the past 2 mornings I've woken up to nothing. Before I get too excited, I have to remind myself that I will have good days, and then followed by bad days. Some women think it's resolved and it makes it's appearance when they're least expecting it.
What I forgot to tell y'all about my OB appt I had when I found out I was pregnant, was that it was a disaster. I didn't get to see an actual OB, or even get to talk to one...Even after the 1st ultrasound when they suspected ectopic. I just kept getting seen by a nurse. A nurse who made it very clear that I was bothering her, and that she had other patients to see. So I switched..again.
My 1st appt with the new OB was scheduled for the 20th of this month. I got an early ultrasound appt with them for last Monday just for viability. But I got a call on Thursday from the new OB herself to let me know that I needed to come in right away after the long weekend. She needs to do an ultrasound and figure out how at risk am I. She also mentioned that I will have to be watched carefully, and will be a high risk patient.
And that appointment is tomorrow. I am excited to see the baby again, and to see how much it has grown since last week, but I am also petrified at what else we may or may not see. I have been praying for this to heal, and heal fast so it doesn't affect how the baby is developing, but I have little hope...I am still cramping, and I am still spotting, and I am exhausted, all signs that it's still there.
If you wouldn't mind saying a prayer for us tomorrow I would really appreciate it. Or just keep us in your thoughts =) My appt is at 11:30, and we should be back by 2pm. I'll update as soon as I can.
What I forgot to tell y'all about my OB appt I had when I found out I was pregnant, was that it was a disaster. I didn't get to see an actual OB, or even get to talk to one...Even after the 1st ultrasound when they suspected ectopic. I just kept getting seen by a nurse. A nurse who made it very clear that I was bothering her, and that she had other patients to see. So I switched..again.
My 1st appt with the new OB was scheduled for the 20th of this month. I got an early ultrasound appt with them for last Monday just for viability. But I got a call on Thursday from the new OB herself to let me know that I needed to come in right away after the long weekend. She needs to do an ultrasound and figure out how at risk am I. She also mentioned that I will have to be watched carefully, and will be a high risk patient.
And that appointment is tomorrow. I am excited to see the baby again, and to see how much it has grown since last week, but I am also petrified at what else we may or may not see. I have been praying for this to heal, and heal fast so it doesn't affect how the baby is developing, but I have little hope...I am still cramping, and I am still spotting, and I am exhausted, all signs that it's still there.
If you wouldn't mind saying a prayer for us tomorrow I would really appreciate it. Or just keep us in your thoughts =) My appt is at 11:30, and we should be back by 2pm. I'll update as soon as I can.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Bed Rest
Yes, I am 7 weeks pregnant and I am on bed rest.
Yesterday was day #8 of every morning bleeding. Yesterday was probably the scariest. Yesterday was the day that I decided that this all seemed to strange to keep ignoring, and I went back to the ER to get it investigated. Then I left the ER with a diagnosis and told I have a very high chance of a threatened miscarriage.
DIAGNOSIS: Subchorionic Hemorrhage
Scary part...It now all makes sense. In my 1st ultrasound the tech mentioned "free fluid" So when I had my 2nd ultrasound I told the tech that I already knew about the free fluid, and she noted seeing it aswell. Then at my 1st OB ultrasound, the tech just looked at my ovaries, and baby and said the spotting is just the free fluid. she didn't look around much more. And the OB refuses to see me till I am much further along.
Lets go back to yesterday...
I woke up at 5am to go to pee. I see RED. I wiped and wiped till it was much lighter and barely there. I went back to bed and woke my husband up to let him know that I think I am miscarrying. I get back up again to check, and this time the blood looked PURPLE! but it wiped back down to a watery red very quickly. It was over.
I looked up everything I could about miscarriage and what to expect, and it all seemed very text book, the signs I was having. But the strange part was that by 11am, it was back to very light pink, and mostly brown again...By afternoon, it was the brown spotting.
So last night I panicked. What if it wasn't a full miscarriage and I'll get an infection..So I went to the ER. I explained to the doctor what happened and he believed I more than likely miscarried, so he ordered blood work and an ultrasound. They were very caring and considerate.
When I went in for my ultrasound, the Tech told me she didn't have the big monitor on the wall on that is usually for the patients to watch the ultrasound because she has been burned in the past...huh? That she doesn't give any information, that we will have to reply 100% on the doctor. Well, We were able to befriend her in 5 minutes, had her talking about her kid, family, and everything under the moon...so she started to talk about the ultrasound!
She found the sac, and the baby right away...PHEW! The baby has grown since Monday and his heart rate is 130 now! Right now the baby seems unaffected by the current events. But we finally were able to see the problem. She pulled up the old ultrasound photos aswell, and there it was. A huge tear behind where the placenta is.
So, for a week I've been saying everyday it seems like it's getting darker, and it's strange how it was mostly in the morning the darkest is because it pools up while I am sleeping, and then works it way out in the morning and then the slow leak through out the day.
The bad news...It's pushing the placenta away. If it gets a good bleed or pools up, it can loosen the placenta, or stop nourishing the baby because the blood flow will be bleeding out.
And that is why I am on Bed Rest, and 100% pelvic rest (aka no sex) They gave me 50/50 odds of me keeping the pregnancy. He said it really could go either way, especially since in 8 days it has just been getting worse and worse, and I haven't done anything strenuous. The other crazy thing is that my body does NOT like the blood loss. I have been more dizzy than before. Since I've gotten pregnant, standing up, or moving makes me dizzy and see spots, now it seems I am dizzy just moving fast, or get light headed standing there.
Oh! Get this...They want me to go to my local Fire Dept. everyday to be monitored for my blood pressure. I am assuming this because there are no doctors or pharmacies in my small town. lol I won't be doing that! I'll just monitor the bleeding myself, and go in if it's too much. ( Blood pressure was 105/51 all night at the hospital)
Yesterday was day #8 of every morning bleeding. Yesterday was probably the scariest. Yesterday was the day that I decided that this all seemed to strange to keep ignoring, and I went back to the ER to get it investigated. Then I left the ER with a diagnosis and told I have a very high chance of a threatened miscarriage.
DIAGNOSIS: Subchorionic Hemorrhage
Scary part...It now all makes sense. In my 1st ultrasound the tech mentioned "free fluid" So when I had my 2nd ultrasound I told the tech that I already knew about the free fluid, and she noted seeing it aswell. Then at my 1st OB ultrasound, the tech just looked at my ovaries, and baby and said the spotting is just the free fluid. she didn't look around much more. And the OB refuses to see me till I am much further along.
Lets go back to yesterday...
I woke up at 5am to go to pee. I see RED. I wiped and wiped till it was much lighter and barely there. I went back to bed and woke my husband up to let him know that I think I am miscarrying. I get back up again to check, and this time the blood looked PURPLE! but it wiped back down to a watery red very quickly. It was over.
I looked up everything I could about miscarriage and what to expect, and it all seemed very text book, the signs I was having. But the strange part was that by 11am, it was back to very light pink, and mostly brown again...By afternoon, it was the brown spotting.
So last night I panicked. What if it wasn't a full miscarriage and I'll get an infection..So I went to the ER. I explained to the doctor what happened and he believed I more than likely miscarried, so he ordered blood work and an ultrasound. They were very caring and considerate.
When I went in for my ultrasound, the Tech told me she didn't have the big monitor on the wall on that is usually for the patients to watch the ultrasound because she has been burned in the past...huh? That she doesn't give any information, that we will have to reply 100% on the doctor. Well, We were able to befriend her in 5 minutes, had her talking about her kid, family, and everything under the moon...so she started to talk about the ultrasound!
She found the sac, and the baby right away...PHEW! The baby has grown since Monday and his heart rate is 130 now! Right now the baby seems unaffected by the current events. But we finally were able to see the problem. She pulled up the old ultrasound photos aswell, and there it was. A huge tear behind where the placenta is.
So, for a week I've been saying everyday it seems like it's getting darker, and it's strange how it was mostly in the morning the darkest is because it pools up while I am sleeping, and then works it way out in the morning and then the slow leak through out the day.
The bad news...It's pushing the placenta away. If it gets a good bleed or pools up, it can loosen the placenta, or stop nourishing the baby because the blood flow will be bleeding out.
And that is why I am on Bed Rest, and 100% pelvic rest (aka no sex) They gave me 50/50 odds of me keeping the pregnancy. He said it really could go either way, especially since in 8 days it has just been getting worse and worse, and I haven't done anything strenuous. The other crazy thing is that my body does NOT like the blood loss. I have been more dizzy than before. Since I've gotten pregnant, standing up, or moving makes me dizzy and see spots, now it seems I am dizzy just moving fast, or get light headed standing there.
Oh! Get this...They want me to go to my local Fire Dept. everyday to be monitored for my blood pressure. I am assuming this because there are no doctors or pharmacies in my small town. lol I won't be doing that! I'll just monitor the bleeding myself, and go in if it's too much. ( Blood pressure was 105/51 all night at the hospital)
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