About a week ago I all of a sudden didn't want to find out the baby's sex. I don't seem to have very many surprises in my life and it was the one surprise that I could control. Well, that thought went right out the window! I reminded myself that I am the person who not only looks for my Christmas gifts, BUT I actually open them, and reseal them. Like for real.
We have a choice. I can book my Gender revealing Ultrasound at the 3d/4d place in town for $89. Or I can wait 5 more weeks for my anatomy scan and see if the tech will tell me. I think I will wait 5 more weeks. Trust me, it's taking me every bit of strength not to book the Gender U/S! No idea how I even thought I could wait till the birth :P
Of course my husband will be finding out this week if we have to relocate. With my luck it will be BEFORE my anatomy scan!
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We may have some names picked out!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Welcome ICLW!
Welcome to my little space on the interwebs =)
A bit about me:
Started TTC in 2005, and shortly after I was diagnosed with PCOS and my husband diagnosed with moderate male factor infertility. We tried numerous clomid cycles and got no ovulation, even on the highest doses. So last year we moved on to injectables with iui's. Then came the IVF and the Frozen Egg Transfer....and the bills.
After the last failed frozen transfer last Christmas I decided I needed a break. Emotionally and Financially. I needed/wanted to start the new year off taking care of me. Over the years I really ate my emotions and found myself weighing in at 231lbs by the end of the year. I focused all my energy on getting healthy and the weight started to fall off.
It wasn't too long that all I could think about was TTC. Especially since I started to get a period monthly, I hadn't had a regular monthly since I was a teenager. I started blogging about finding a new GYNO, and figuring out how I was going to approach them and see if they would prescribe me clomid, so I could see if starting back at step 1 after getting healthy would make a difference. I had my appointment date of June 9th.
It was May 26th that I finally got my 1st natural positive OPK (even blogged that too! ha!) and not even 2 weeks later I started getting positive pregnancy tests! June 9th's appt turned into a pregnancy confirmation and I am now just a few days shy of being 15 weeks pregnant =)
The best part is that I got to capture all these life changing events on my blog. Who knew that I would have a record of some of the most important events in my life just by blogging. I love it!
A bit about me:
Started TTC in 2005, and shortly after I was diagnosed with PCOS and my husband diagnosed with moderate male factor infertility. We tried numerous clomid cycles and got no ovulation, even on the highest doses. So last year we moved on to injectables with iui's. Then came the IVF and the Frozen Egg Transfer....and the bills.
After the last failed frozen transfer last Christmas I decided I needed a break. Emotionally and Financially. I needed/wanted to start the new year off taking care of me. Over the years I really ate my emotions and found myself weighing in at 231lbs by the end of the year. I focused all my energy on getting healthy and the weight started to fall off.
It wasn't too long that all I could think about was TTC. Especially since I started to get a period monthly, I hadn't had a regular monthly since I was a teenager. I started blogging about finding a new GYNO, and figuring out how I was going to approach them and see if they would prescribe me clomid, so I could see if starting back at step 1 after getting healthy would make a difference. I had my appointment date of June 9th.
It was May 26th that I finally got my 1st natural positive OPK (even blogged that too! ha!) and not even 2 weeks later I started getting positive pregnancy tests! June 9th's appt turned into a pregnancy confirmation and I am now just a few days shy of being 15 weeks pregnant =)
The best part is that I got to capture all these life changing events on my blog. Who knew that I would have a record of some of the most important events in my life just by blogging. I love it!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Doctors appointments..
On Tuesday I had 2 doctor appts. 1 for the OB, the other for the dentist. I left BOTH visits with some hefty bills!
OB: Was my 14 week check up. Belly was measuring 15 weeks and baby's heart rate was in the 150's. We got back the results of the NT scan and blood work. We have a 1 in 10,000 chance of baby having downs and something else that I can't remember the name of. The doctor was happy with the results. All my blood work came back great as well. I go back in 3 weeks for another check up and then another 3 weeks for the 20 week Anatomy scan.
We found out that we hadn't hit our deductible yet, so that explained a $380 bill they gave us. Plus they want us to start paying $85 every 30 days for the birth of the baby. I just need to clarify with them that if we do have to relocate soonish, that the money that we have to put towards the birth will be transferred to the new OB. It's really confusing. I come from Canada, so I never worried about this sort of stuff, it's all new to me.
By the way, I totally feel the baby moving now!
Dentist: I had my dentist appt later that same afternoon. I have some sort of dentist phobia. It all goes back to my childhood, where our dentist I swear was a torturer! My brother didn't like the needles, and he told the dentist that he didn't want one...so he didn't get one! I also had partial braces, so I was at the dentist alot for adjustments. Anyways...2 years ago I had my top wisdom teeth removed and I chose sedation dentistry..I fell in love that day. So next time I needed another extraction and a filling, I chose the little blue pills again! Who knew going to the dentist would be so easy and relaxing! I slept for 3 days...
There was a downside to this... My husband chose to stay in the room while I was having the work done because I was totally out of it. The chance of me remembering anything that happened would be very slim. So imagine my surprise when I was told what I said when the doctor was wiping the blood/drool from my lips "mmm It feels like you were kissing me softly" Oh and I managed to pee the bed on day 2.
Fast forward to Tuesday. I was told that I have to have not 1, but 2 root canals. I almost died. I've never had a root canal. EVER. I've heard horror stories about them. The worst part is that I have to be awake! The dentist promised me it would feel like I was getting a cavity filled...Uhmm I don't know what that feels like! I tried to get them to put it off till after the birth of the baby so I could be knocked out, but I have an infection pocket =[
I was also hoping to scare them with the pregnancy...No such luck, the OB said it would be safe. FML! Oh, and then I was handed a parting gift. The bill of $2468 (yes, 2, 4, 6, 8) My insurance will cover 50 and 80% of some of the procedure, but I have a $1500/yr maximum. This lovely thing should be going down within the next week, they are being overly dramatic making it out that it can't wait any longer...I think he has a payment for a boat due soon.
Oh, and on top of all of this...The hospital and the blood lab bills came in! And then my husbands car croaked, so it's at Napas right now getting a new fuel pump, a filter and the gas drained from the oil tank and have to get an oil change and a NEW BATTERY! Weeee!
So, I'd like to take a moment and say Thank you Mommy for helping! When it rains, it pours!
OB: Was my 14 week check up. Belly was measuring 15 weeks and baby's heart rate was in the 150's. We got back the results of the NT scan and blood work. We have a 1 in 10,000 chance of baby having downs and something else that I can't remember the name of. The doctor was happy with the results. All my blood work came back great as well. I go back in 3 weeks for another check up and then another 3 weeks for the 20 week Anatomy scan.
We found out that we hadn't hit our deductible yet, so that explained a $380 bill they gave us. Plus they want us to start paying $85 every 30 days for the birth of the baby. I just need to clarify with them that if we do have to relocate soonish, that the money that we have to put towards the birth will be transferred to the new OB. It's really confusing. I come from Canada, so I never worried about this sort of stuff, it's all new to me.
By the way, I totally feel the baby moving now!
Dentist: I had my dentist appt later that same afternoon. I have some sort of dentist phobia. It all goes back to my childhood, where our dentist I swear was a torturer! My brother didn't like the needles, and he told the dentist that he didn't want one...so he didn't get one! I also had partial braces, so I was at the dentist alot for adjustments. Anyways...2 years ago I had my top wisdom teeth removed and I chose sedation dentistry..I fell in love that day. So next time I needed another extraction and a filling, I chose the little blue pills again! Who knew going to the dentist would be so easy and relaxing! I slept for 3 days...
There was a downside to this... My husband chose to stay in the room while I was having the work done because I was totally out of it. The chance of me remembering anything that happened would be very slim. So imagine my surprise when I was told what I said when the doctor was wiping the blood/drool from my lips "mmm It feels like you were kissing me softly" Oh and I managed to pee the bed on day 2.
Fast forward to Tuesday. I was told that I have to have not 1, but 2 root canals. I almost died. I've never had a root canal. EVER. I've heard horror stories about them. The worst part is that I have to be awake! The dentist promised me it would feel like I was getting a cavity filled...Uhmm I don't know what that feels like! I tried to get them to put it off till after the birth of the baby so I could be knocked out, but I have an infection pocket =[
I was also hoping to scare them with the pregnancy...No such luck, the OB said it would be safe. FML! Oh, and then I was handed a parting gift. The bill of $2468 (yes, 2, 4, 6, 8) My insurance will cover 50 and 80% of some of the procedure, but I have a $1500/yr maximum. This lovely thing should be going down within the next week, they are being overly dramatic making it out that it can't wait any longer...I think he has a payment for a boat due soon.
Oh, and on top of all of this...The hospital and the blood lab bills came in! And then my husbands car croaked, so it's at Napas right now getting a new fuel pump, a filter and the gas drained from the oil tank and have to get an oil change and a NEW BATTERY! Weeee!
So, I'd like to take a moment and say Thank you Mommy for helping! When it rains, it pours!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Doppler
We finally got a doppler! Well, my mom bought it for us, and we had it overnighted. In our little town you don't get mail to your house, you have to rent a post office box. So I was checking the tracking every 3 minutes all morning and the moment it arrived, I went for a walk.
I wasn't even home 30 seconds before I tore open the box and started frantically searching for baby. I was so happy when I thought I found him/her. But then I noticed that it was my heart beat -76-! lol I think I found the baby 10 minutes later, but by that time I had to get up and walk away. I was scaring myself.
Well, I didn't get to finish writing this post before I went to look for it again! This time I found a heartbeat of 143. I called my mom and went to let her listen...and the baby moved. blah. Maybe next time mom!
Tomorrow morning I have an OB appt, and then a dentist appt in the afternoon. Last weekend I ended up in the ER with such a bad tooth ache, that it was determined that since I am pregnant and my gums are more sensitive I got a bacteria infection. fun stuff. T3's, penicillin and a needle in the cheek later, and I am sorta looking forward to getting rid of this pain once and for all.
I wasn't even home 30 seconds before I tore open the box and started frantically searching for baby. I was so happy when I thought I found him/her. But then I noticed that it was my heart beat -76-! lol I think I found the baby 10 minutes later, but by that time I had to get up and walk away. I was scaring myself.
Well, I didn't get to finish writing this post before I went to look for it again! This time I found a heartbeat of 143. I called my mom and went to let her listen...and the baby moved. blah. Maybe next time mom!
Tomorrow morning I have an OB appt, and then a dentist appt in the afternoon. Last weekend I ended up in the ER with such a bad tooth ache, that it was determined that since I am pregnant and my gums are more sensitive I got a bacteria infection. fun stuff. T3's, penicillin and a needle in the cheek later, and I am sorta looking forward to getting rid of this pain once and for all.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Letter in the mail...
We got a letter in the mail addressed to both myself and my husband. We couldn't open it. We knew where it came from, we knew what it needed, we knew what needed to be done. We knew it would not be easy.
It was a letter asking us what we would like to do with our 4 frozen embryos. It was a letter wanting us to pay $1500 to freeze them another year. It was a letter wanting to know if we were going to give them a chance. We decided to let them go.
It was not an easy choice.
In December we thawed 4 embryos and had 3 survive, but were only allowed to transfer the best 2. I know that just because that cycle didn't work doesn't mean that these last embryos wouldn't work. We just can't financially right now do it =(
It sucks when infertiles can't have treatments because of financial reasons, and it hurts to know we can't give these embryos a chance. We would have to pay $1500 this week, and then again next summer. I would not be able to do a transfer while breastfeeding...Not to mention we have no idea if we will be relocating again soon...Jayleen has college in 2 years, and I have baby gear I need to purchase within the next 5 months.
It's just sad no matter how many reasons I come up with.
I'm sorry little embryos.
It was a letter asking us what we would like to do with our 4 frozen embryos. It was a letter wanting us to pay $1500 to freeze them another year. It was a letter wanting to know if we were going to give them a chance. We decided to let them go.
It was not an easy choice.
In December we thawed 4 embryos and had 3 survive, but were only allowed to transfer the best 2. I know that just because that cycle didn't work doesn't mean that these last embryos wouldn't work. We just can't financially right now do it =(
It sucks when infertiles can't have treatments because of financial reasons, and it hurts to know we can't give these embryos a chance. We would have to pay $1500 this week, and then again next summer. I would not be able to do a transfer while breastfeeding...Not to mention we have no idea if we will be relocating again soon...Jayleen has college in 2 years, and I have baby gear I need to purchase within the next 5 months.
It's just sad no matter how many reasons I come up with.
I'm sorry little embryos.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Thankful Thursday
I have alot to be thankful about. But the main ones on my mind is that I am thankful to be in my 12th week, and that my 2nd trimester is just a few days away!
and thankful that I am having fastfood for dinner!
and thankful that I am having fastfood for dinner!
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